You have the correct, permissible grieving feelings. I have gone through all the stages of grieving and can admit that I still feel angry at the conniving men that started this whole mess. My mother is still tangled up in this crap and she drags my father into it under threats against his disbelief. My poor father has lived threatened all his life and has no choice but to bow down to ignorant men. We are with you friend, keep researching.
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Feeling Sad After Uncovering TTATT
by pale.emperor inmy initial pangs of unease and doubt led me to research some things.
well, a lot of things really.
i've never felt comfortable using the bible to try to calculate dates (1914).
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Demon possesion, bunch of crap or?
by raven ini've been using the forum to vent and post a lot more frequently lately as a venting purpose & way to obtain peace of mind with the craziness i've been going through recently as i fade away form the org.
anyways today i'm sitting here at work and thinking to myself about demons... ok i know this sounds crazy but has anyone else out there been traumatized by the thought of demons?
i had a dream the other night, just flat out spooky and i woke and couldn't help but feeling it may have been evil ole' satan and his demons at it again.. i don't want to believe that, (trying not to, & just brushing it under the rug so to speak) but have any of you out there been talked up about demons?
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My field is in psychology, and although many things can be explained through certain psychological thought processes, I have experienced some strange happenings. As a JW I was taught to think of anything strange as a demonic happening. I like to hear stories of people that have been resuscitated, these stories give me hope. I know that I was no where and do not have knowledge of my existence before being born, so this strengthened the JW way of thinking, that we do not know our post existence either, until we are resurrected. But I want to believe that we go somewhere, I want to believe this so much. I have a few experiences that have drawn me to think that we exist as spirits after we pass away. My brother's presence was felt at my moms house for about a week after his death. He messed with the electronics, my father and I still talk about this. I have asked my JW parents to come visit me after they pass away, to give me some reaffirmation of this. -
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Were you beaten as a child?
by purrpurr ini've been confronting my mother with her dubious parenting skills (abuse) of me as a child.
particularly the beatings i would get with the wooden spoon.
not a light smack but hitting me as hard as she could for as long as she could.
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Ohh yes, I got beaten more times in the Kingdom Hall restroom than at home. My mother did this more in demonstration to show all the brothers that her children were the cause of her disturbance. She pulled me down the isle many times as I screamed my ass off. All brothers would see me being taken to the back and it almost seemed like they had a stupid smile on their face. My mother enjoyed the self pity she brought upon herself after the meetings. I thank my creator if he exists, for my father that never gave himself completely to this cult. It all ended when my mother tried to slap the shit out me on schedule for me flipping pages with my bible. I got up and screamed at her, "This is the last time you do this to me"! I was 15 and big enough to block her hands. The brothers in the hall sided with her as always and she would cry telling the sisters that her children were evil. The brothers blamed the apparent happenings on our unbaptized father "Satan". Now, I admit to loving my dad more. I sat away from her from then forward. -
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I am a happy Man!!!
by Aprostate Exam ini am a happy man!
i texted my mother a couple of questions.
i asked if she thought that my children will die in armagedon even if they were good, and had a possitive outlook on life.
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I broke down bawling in happiness, I had never reacted this way to anything in my life. I am so lucky and extremely happy.
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I am a happy Man!!!
by Aprostate Exam ini am a happy man!
i texted my mother a couple of questions.
i asked if she thought that my children will die in armagedon even if they were good, and had a possitive outlook on life.
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I am a happy Man! I texted my mother a couple of questions. I asked if she thought that my children will die in Armagedon even if they were good, and had a possitive outlook on life. She answered, "Your children will not die and will exist happy." I asked if she would cease speaking to her own son (me) if he did away with the faith. She replied, "You are my son and nothing will change that"! "I will always talk to you Mijo." Mijo is translated to my son. I Am A Happy Man!!
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Live in the U.S.? Tune into Dateline Friday evening, April 15th, to see a report about the Colorado Candelario murder trial (he's a JW).
by AndersonsInfo inralph and pam candelario were active jws in colorado.
ralph murdered pam.
professor jim penton was invited to appear at the trial last month by the prosecution as an expert witness to answer questions about jws.
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Yahoo article, "It happened to me: My Mom Dumped Me in Foster Care When I Renounced Her Religion
by fortis et liber ininteresting article and even more interesting comments.
author was molested by a jw elder, told her mom (and others) about it, was not believed, her behavior spiraled out of control (acting out), was placed in foster care by her mother that refused to believe an "upstanding member of the congregation" could do something so despicable.
article here (i hope this works/i'm such a luddite): http://news.yahoo.com/happened-mom-dumped-foster-care-160000998.html?soc_src=mediacontentstory&soc_trk=ma .
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I feel for you. My brother was also not believed and there was no second witness, so the bastard that violated him went free and continued to serve in the organization. My mother went on to say that if it happened, then it was because he wanted that. So sorry -
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Welcome Luna!
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Your Life is an Avatar, Pendejo!
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I do hate the Governing Nobody, because they have given themselves the key into so many good peoples hearts. I love many brothers, not the narcissistic Ted Bundy/Gacy kind, or the self serving, hate filled, gossiping, crime building Sisters. HATE THOSE BASTARDS!!!